Well, I guess now you all know why I don't like myself....You see I can't be trusted! Promised you all this nice bumpy ride, had you buckle up and look what's happened.
Nothing!!! For two entire weeks you've been waiting, all nervous about what lies ahead and all you get is a no show.
I'm sorry. I truly truly am. Please accept my sincerest apologies. Etcetera etcetera. But you can't say you weren't forwarned, it's all part of this ride you know! Nothing is what it seems to be and things can turn just like that, or rather: just like my mood.
To compare my moodswings to the Dutch weather would be a eufemisme. I promise you, I can go from blissfully happy to deepdowninaninkblackpit within thousands of a second. And back again, might even cover some of the scales inbetween.
Mostly I am truly satisfied and happy in life. Last week was bliss, as I had sort of a 'kids' week. My firstborn came home for a few days and we had a blast. Together with her brother we sat, talked and laughed deep into the night. Hubster and I took the youngest and her bf out for dinner, which was a very nice time as well. Mom time always makes me smile, as long as the cubs aren't fighting amongst eachother that is.
So I do have a hallpass for last week, now the week before and this week, not so much.
I'd like to say I was really working on my exercise in writing freely, while following the book that I bought: "The Artist's way". I'd have to write 3 pages every day, just write, nothing special, merely getting your mind working and your pen going. That's right, your pen. No typing but good oldfashioned penmanship. Do you have the faintest idea how much writingcramp you can get from that? But actually it is fun to do, if I get to it that is.I was really dilligent the first few days, but then 'life' got in the way.
I'd also like to say I was working on the story my dad asked me to write. Yes I've made a set up, did some research and there it stopped.
Household would be another great excuse. However, my invaluable help in the house (a.k.a. my houself) does pretty much most of that.
So you see, I don't have any valid excuse for being awol. I wasn't even mia, for the one thing missing most wasn't me, but action itself!
What have I been doing you may ask. And honestly, I couldn't answer that one!
Must be basically a whole lot of nothing really. Not even games on the computer, not a good book, no long visits with a friend.
And I hate that part of me. I truly do. At least when I still worked, I knew where my time went. I had a paycheck to show for it and the bookings I made. Now it seems I just loose time, doing nothing at all!
What I do have are my daydreams, but hey, I'm not going to show those to anyone! Not even if they involve writing a 'real' book and perhaps more than one. To make that a dutch suspense novel with a dose of humour in it and be well received. Oh I could dream on hours and hours about that! I can see the book, smell it even....
Guess I did let you in on my little secret here, now did I?
Truth of the matter is, that I will have to work for that, because daydreaming never got anyone anywhere, you have to take the next step!
So I tell you what I'm going to do. I'm kicking myself into gear, dream less and do more. Because time flies and you better make it fun and productive!
If you're looking for me: I'm doing my 'morning pages' that are mandatory according 'The Artist's way', or I'm trying to write a part for the story. I promise....Wait, I don't do promises like that, because I know I'll fail one way or another and then I'll hate myself again. Let's find something else that I can safely say.
Not making promises, but you can all call me on my tasks. Hit me on the head when I seem to be slacking (which probably is exactly the fact), and kick my hiney to get me back on track.
It helps you know, moral support from your friends!
On that note: Hans and Frans (no not a new show) thank you both for the swift blow around the head. Needed it!
Nothing!!! For two entire weeks you've been waiting, all nervous about what lies ahead and all you get is a no show.
I'm sorry. I truly truly am. Please accept my sincerest apologies. Etcetera etcetera. But you can't say you weren't forwarned, it's all part of this ride you know! Nothing is what it seems to be and things can turn just like that, or rather: just like my mood.
To compare my moodswings to the Dutch weather would be a eufemisme. I promise you, I can go from blissfully happy to deepdowninaninkblackpit within thousands of a second. And back again, might even cover some of the scales inbetween.
Mostly I am truly satisfied and happy in life. Last week was bliss, as I had sort of a 'kids' week. My firstborn came home for a few days and we had a blast. Together with her brother we sat, talked and laughed deep into the night. Hubster and I took the youngest and her bf out for dinner, which was a very nice time as well. Mom time always makes me smile, as long as the cubs aren't fighting amongst eachother that is.
So I do have a hallpass for last week, now the week before and this week, not so much.
I'd like to say I was really working on my exercise in writing freely, while following the book that I bought: "The Artist's way". I'd have to write 3 pages every day, just write, nothing special, merely getting your mind working and your pen going. That's right, your pen. No typing but good oldfashioned penmanship. Do you have the faintest idea how much writingcramp you can get from that? But actually it is fun to do, if I get to it that is.I was really dilligent the first few days, but then 'life' got in the way.
I'd also like to say I was working on the story my dad asked me to write. Yes I've made a set up, did some research and there it stopped.
Household would be another great excuse. However, my invaluable help in the house (a.k.a. my houself) does pretty much most of that.
So you see, I don't have any valid excuse for being awol. I wasn't even mia, for the one thing missing most wasn't me, but action itself!
What have I been doing you may ask. And honestly, I couldn't answer that one!
Must be basically a whole lot of nothing really. Not even games on the computer, not a good book, no long visits with a friend.
And I hate that part of me. I truly do. At least when I still worked, I knew where my time went. I had a paycheck to show for it and the bookings I made. Now it seems I just loose time, doing nothing at all!
What I do have are my daydreams, but hey, I'm not going to show those to anyone! Not even if they involve writing a 'real' book and perhaps more than one. To make that a dutch suspense novel with a dose of humour in it and be well received. Oh I could dream on hours and hours about that! I can see the book, smell it even....
Guess I did let you in on my little secret here, now did I?
Truth of the matter is, that I will have to work for that, because daydreaming never got anyone anywhere, you have to take the next step!
So I tell you what I'm going to do. I'm kicking myself into gear, dream less and do more. Because time flies and you better make it fun and productive!
If you're looking for me: I'm doing my 'morning pages' that are mandatory according 'The Artist's way', or I'm trying to write a part for the story. I promise....Wait, I don't do promises like that, because I know I'll fail one way or another and then I'll hate myself again. Let's find something else that I can safely say.
Not making promises, but you can all call me on my tasks. Hit me on the head when I seem to be slacking (which probably is exactly the fact), and kick my hiney to get me back on track.
It helps you know, moral support from your friends!
On that note: Hans and Frans (no not a new show) thank you both for the swift blow around the head. Needed it!
